Honestly I wish I could go back 2-3 months ago when everything was going good and life was so simple. I don’t know what to do all the relationships I have never work out. It’s a shame everyone I know thinks I’m shallow & go for looks because of some of the people I dated but I honestly don’t go for looks, I see the shyest most sweetest person ever equal to the nice handsome jock. I just want to find someone to love even if they live far away. I’ve been through so much it’s crazy, and I’m a bitch sometimes to cover up my feelings so I won’t get hurt. I act like I don’t miss someone or something & don’t care about it when in reality I do. I’ve started to realize how cold people are too in this world, for instance this kid in my class knows I’m bisexual and walks up near me, looks at me, and then says “I hate lesbians & gays”, bumps into me and walks away. I nearly cried but I didn’t… I didn’t want him to know it got to me.. this kids always making smart comments about gay people. He’s from another country and all so maybe he has different beliefs but he doesn’t hear me going around saying I hate whatever the hell he is now do you? no. I’m so over whelmed with school, gotta get A’s an B’s to get into a good high school. Gotta do it. That’s all I’ve been telling myself.